The Spirit of Christmas: Fuck Off.
I have no tree this year: I have no room to put one and I have no energy to put up any ornaments. Since I have no energy to put up ornaments, my ability to pack said ornaments after the holidays is also suspect. Therefore, no Tree.I am in a position in my life to do lots of wonderful things. I have vacation and sick time again. I typically have enough money every week to cover all of my bills, savings and "reward" myself with a little something. I have friends and family that people are, or should be, jealous of. But I am spinning my wheels. I haven't moved on my personal statement in months. I am slipping at work. My social life, while improving dramatically, isn't really going in a direction that I want it to go in. I don't have enough time, or money to do what I want--but I have a fuck-ton of stress.
I keep thinking back to this other (personal) blog that I read. This blogger wrote that if they could hand over their decisions to someone else that they trusted, just for a while, they would. I couldn't agree more. It seems that I have been making a lot of difficult choices lately, especially when it comes to work, and I am tired of it. Problem is, I have a problem letting people do my laundry, let alone making important decisions for me. Also, I wouldn't ask any of my friends to make those kind of decisions for me.
Simply put, I am tired of responsibility. Christmas was just one of the "responsibilities" that I have decided to get rid of this year. This isn't so much of a Bah, Humbug. It's a, "hey, I'm busy. Fuck Off." Kinda response.
I do have more to write and to say. However, I have to sleep. I get to go to a christmas party--I mean a holiday party--in my office tomorrow. Yeah me.
posted by Pretentious Bastard @ 12/14/2006 01:53:00 AM
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